Christmas Cheer….

Every year Sonje’ Productions and Zenith Hospitality partners together to provide 5 families a Christmas to remember. This year my friend, Ray Rice, and his foundation, Ray Rice Charitable Fund, was on hand to be part. Each family gets tons of toys courtesy of my client, Wal-mart, and a hotel room to spend Christmas in. Special thanks to Wal-mart, Sullivans Steakhouse, Zenith Hospitality, and Bea Gaddy for making it all possible.

Ray and Bea Gaddy Families

Ray talking football

Ray Rice

Enjoying a Sullivan's smoothie

Drama….Sign me up!!!

I’ve always considered myself a person who lived a drama-free life; no fights with other girls over men, no major arguments at work, and haven’t had the threat of a fight since I was in high school. However, I am dead wrong, and some of my friends can attest to this fact. I have found that I put myself in difficult situations (relationships) that, in the end, always end dramatically. My mom and my friends are always like, “Why are you putting up with that?” I don’t know. I date complex, sometimes difficult, men. Maybe it’s the challenge that allows my competitive spirit to thrive. I think a good amount of us don’t like the run of the mill. I like peace, just not all the time, but certainly more than most people I know.

Over time I’ve learned that drama is my thing, at times, but conflict isn’t. It’s funny when I sit around and watch people look for drama and the conflict. The “Did she just throw the menu down on the table like that?” or “Does he just have us waiting here to be smart?” Poor little customer service rep then gets hit with all types of attitude, and maybe an altercation, depending on how aggressively they react. Cedric the Entertainer’s set on Kings of Comedyaccurately depicts the “I wish a n*gga would” attitude many people have. We tend to live in this state of aggression, be it due to the atmosphere in our households, or in our neighborhoods. The constant state of paranoia that someone is trying to “get over” on us, or play us for a dummy, plagues our interaction with people every day. One wrong move could force the use of choice words and flying fists. Some people never realize that their need for drama is from learned behavior of improper conflict resolution, or the perpetuation of their own insecurities. If that other person is skinnier, wealthier or better looking, then they must have an heir of cockiness; and the other person then feels it’s their job to bring them back to reality with a smack. Even in relationships, people look for any little thing to blow-up about, because things are going “too right.” They need to either see, or prove to themselves, that their significant other truly loves them by putting them through a roller coaster of emotions. Things are too boring and their need for speed needs to be jolted with an explosive argument. The ability to just be in love is no longer the norm.

Sometimes the contrived drama is used to mask the inability to love properly. Accepting love, and whole-heartedly loving someone and being vulnerable with them, causes people to act crazy. They take that same learned behavior and apply it to their relationship, magnifying all the insecurities they have about themselves and their partner. Then the arguments ensue, keeping the relationship unbalanced and giving the power to the aggressor. People who feed off of drama attempt to control their environment by creating an uncontrollable environment. Some drama queens and kings can be more calculating than others. I’ve seen friends chuckle at the fact that they made their mate go crazy over something they did. I’ve seen ex-boyfriends amused by the agony they caused with their reckless behavior. It became a game. Of course the relationship didn’t last, because a healthy relationship needs stability. No one wants to come home to a bickering man or woman complaining about an unreturned phone call, when there are other life stressors. So, the roller coaster ride eventually comes to an end.

Over the years, I’ve seen my own fascination with drama dissipate, much like some of the drama kings and queens in my life. As you mature, you want to have a loving relationship without all the up and downs. You learn to embrace the love some bestows on you. You learn to not nitpick at everything to stir up a disagreement. You learn to look past a stranger’s faults and not instigate a fight. Those small things don’t matter when you are looking at the bigger picture of peace, love and happiness.

 

2010 in review

The stats helper monkeys at WordPress.com mulled over how this blog did in 2010, and here’s a high level summary of its overall blog health:

Healthy blog!

The Blog-Health-o-Meter™ reads Wow.

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A Boeing 747-400 passenger jet can hold 416 passengers. This blog was viewed about 3,300 times in 2010. That’s about 8 full 747s.

 

In 2010, there were 40 new posts, not bad for the first year! There were 163 pictures uploaded, taking up a total of 72mb. That’s about 3 pictures per week.

The busiest day of the year was August 16th with 91 views. The most popular post that day was For my men….

Where did they come from?

The top referring sites in 2010 were facebook.com, twitter.com, mail.yahoo.com, touch.facebook.com, and WordPress Dashboard.

Some visitors came searching, mostly for christian louboutin men, louboutin men, black hair styles, ray lewis, and black hair styles 2010.

Attractions in 2010

These are the posts and pages that got the most views in 2010.

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For my men… August 2010

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Hair Me!!! September 2010
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Baby Boys… August 2010
14 comments and 1 Like on WordPress.com,

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Unveiled beauties…. July 2010
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My Beloved… December 2010
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A Better You….

The year is coming to an end and I’ve been reflecting on the things I have accomplished for 2010, and have been writing down my 2011 aspirations. One of the things I will achieve is nuturing my interests. We get so boggled down with work and life that we don’t have time to really focus on things we really enjoy. The work week is over, and we are so happy to just sit on the couch that we don’t even get a chance to explore or nourish things that help our “beings” flourish. Our mind  vegetates on colorful pixels generated from our television or computer screens at least 5 hours a day. Many of us haven’t read a book in forever, or took up an hobby, like photography, playing an instrument, or exploring a new, foreign city or language. We limit ourselves by not coming out of our comfort zone and taking interest in something that isn’t part of our immediate community.

This year, I told myself that I wanted to learn a different language. I took French for 5 years in college and I can’t speak more than the general phrases, “Comment-allez vous” and “Tres bien.” When I went to Paris, a few years ago, I was a lost soul. It is a city I really liked and want to return to on a regular basis, so taking up the language won’t hurt and it makes me more versatile. I always marvel at the people who are fluent in 6 languages and who are well-traveled. They have an understanding of the world outside of America and have gained interests from their excursions. Not everyone is blessed to have the resources to travel around the world, but we also don’t take the time to look at the local paper for activities and hobbies that are offered to us and our children right in our community. We get lazy, or haven’t been exposed or conditioned to explore these options.

As I learn, I try to be a conduit of my knowledge to my mentees and my friends. Sometimes, due to cultural differences and behaviors, we box ourselves into what we can and can not do. Our socio-economic class makes us limited in our view of the word, at times. Our imagination becomes stifled because we aren’t encouraged to be more than what our neighborhood or television allows us to envision of ourselves. Then we are also too scared to experience something new because it’s unfamiliar to us. In some other cultures, being inquisitive and curious about different foods, cultures, books, careers, and hobbies make children and people achieve things we didn’t deem possible. There are hobbies other than just basketball, football, and rapping to partake in. There are  foods other than soul food, Chinese food, Italian food, and American cuisine. Try a Greek restaurant, or a Middle Eastern restaurant one day. I promise, you won’t be disappointed. We sometimes  just have to be open to new experiences and different people.

Being a better you in 2011, is looking outside of your immediate circle and trying something innovative and new; being in tune with yourself takes time and growth. Our evolution is based on our own openness and determination to learn. Being stagnant, and doing the same thing over and over, leads to restricted possibilities. I always feel unfulfilled when my life has become montonous. My spirit compels me to find something fresh and brand-new for me to enjoy or find a liking towards; whether be a new song, book, or movie. However, this year, I plan to really develop my interests. Being considered interesting because of my experiences is a life long goal. Have you ever met someone who was just interesting because they have lived life to the fullest? They never let fear or rules stand in the way of them attaining their dreams and desires. I tell people all the time, “Don’t let you stand in the way of you.”  Let go of the fear of being the “only one.” If something peaks your interest, then explore it. You may be really good at it and it could blossom into another source of income or career. You never know. A better you is shedding your usual way of thinking and give light to the possibility of something else.

If you are interested in a new restaurant, book, or cd, here are a few. Also share some of your favorites with me.

Books: You Have Given Me A Country by Neela Vaswani, White Teeth by Zadie Smith, Anna Karenina by Leo Tolstoy

Great Food: Black Olive (Baltimore), Rasika (Washington D.C), Pho Nam (Catonsville), Rice (Washington D.C)

Music: The Best of Fela Kuti, Elis and Tom, When I Fall in Love (Chris Botti)

Ray Lewis and Walmart “Toys and Turkey” Event 2010

Ray Lewis and Walmart give over 150 kids the opportunity to have a grand Christmas….

My Beloved…

My Great Grandmother

The fondest memories of my great grandmother were when I was in Guyana. I lived with her until I was about 3 years-old. She cared for me, loved me, and provided a stable home for me while my young parents worked to bring me to America. Then she came from London to live with us when my sister was born; I was seven. Her baked-goods of pineapple and coconut tarts warmed my belly almost every week when I arrived home from school. She was a staple that I took for granted; a little bit of Guyana was placed in our new American home. I learned how to bake from her; watched her favorite soap operas with her- One Life to Live and General Hospital; and I first learned about the bible from her. Every Sunday I would try to  squirm away from having to read the bible stories she was trying to teach me. Even though I loathed it at that time, it still resonates as one of our most tender moments.

I was never able to have that bond with my grandmother, who was her daughter, because she died from breast cancer when I was five. She was the only maternal grand parent I had to cling to; so when the call came this week that she had passed, I was crushed. She was known as “Mums;” a caretaker to many. That was her knack, to care for children. Mums traveled far and wide to care for her extended family’s children.  Her benevolent spirit always filled every home she entered. Unfortunately, when I was 16, Mums broke her hip and was forced to go live with her only existing daughter to be cared for.

Our bond was something special because I was her first great-granddaughter. I was a rebel against her old school ways, but I was also her little friend. I kept her company most of the time because my parents were hard-working immigrants. She, too, was in a foreign place with not many friends; separated from her sisters, brothers, and friends who were scattered throughout America, Guyana, and England. However, I was her little helper in the kitchen and  her t.v. companion. I still remember her powdery smelling perfume and her slightly grayish-colored eyes. As I reflect back, she was more important than I realized. She was my mom when my mom was working late; my protector and one of the loves of my life. I will miss her, but I know she lived a good life. Everyone hoped she would make it to her 100th birthday on December 25th, but I guess God couldn’t wait to have one of his angels back. Love you, Pearl “Mums” Luthers.

“Everyone has something to give…..”

 

 

Ray Lewis Foundation & Wal-mart give back on Thanksgiving

The lighting of the Washington Monument was yesterday, which is always a sign for me that Christmas, the season of giving, is among us. Last week, Wal-Mart and NFL Pr Bowler Ray Lewis teamed up to feed close to 1000 families at the Bluford Drew Jemison Academy. The young boys at the Academy worked for hours, loading boxes of Thanksgiving goods for needy families. It was a pleasure to help so many people enjoy Thanksgiving this year. Pairing Wal-Mart and Lewis together was something I felt passionately about, because I have witnessed their independent commitment to give back to the community that serves them, and knew that, combined, it would create the perfect synergy. I have worked with Lewis for over two years now, and his benevolent spirit surpasses many. Wal-Mart, being the largest retailer in the world, has been an excellent complement to this partnership. Their dedication to implementing their pillars of education, workforce development, environmental sustainability, and health and wellness are so prevalent in this area, as seen through the institutions and organizations they have supported.

While everyone doesn’t have the resources that Wal-Mart has, everyone has something to give. Whether it be your time, love, or money, people are in need. Our country is going through a time of hardship, and maybe you are experiencing hardships of your own, but you helping another in some type of way may ease your suffering. So as we shop and fellowship with our families be cognizant of your blessings and others’ needs. Our world is one, and when one suffers, we all, in turn, suffer. Have a happy holiday season!!!

Bluford Drew Jemison Academy

Families lines up

Thanks Dietz and Watson for Turkeys

Go, Shawty, it’s my birthday!!!

I do love that my birthday falls during the holiday season. It allows me to see my family and celebrate the day I was born to Beverley and John DeCaires in Georgetown, Guyana. I came to America when I was just 4 years old because my parents wanted better opportunities for me. Now all these years later, I am grateful for their love, sacrifice, and support. It took a lot of courage  to come to an unknown country for the sake of their daughter.

So, I’m grateful for them allowing me to have this journey. All the friends and people I’ve met along the way have shaped who I am. Each city has given me more wisdom and added to my experiences.  New York, the place I grew up, will always be my heart and resonate with my spirit as my first home. Philadelphia was bitter sweet but it was a pivotal point in my life; it strengthened my core and I became a woman there. Baltimore has become like another home for me; the people, fans, and opportunities have surpassed my ideas of what life in Baltimore would have been. There have been no regrets about the pain, the passion, or the love.

Each one of us have gained and lost people, some more painful than others. However, if we hold onto the past and not be grateful for what is before us, we miss out on the future. I could not have imagined this winding road that God has taken me down. I’ve struggled and questioned the path because it has been so unsure at times. Those times, however, eventually gave me the answers I needed. His unseen grace has been at the crux of my survival and strength. So I toast to all the friends I’ve lost, grew apart, or gained over the years because they are all part of me. I miss them and love them all the same but it all happened for a reason. Once again, thank you! I’m grateful.

 

The Book that changed my thoughts….

“In his pursuit of the dream, he was being constantly subjected to tests of his persistence and courage. So he could not be hasty, nor impatient. If he pushed forward impulsively, he would fail to see the signs and omens left by God along his path.”

“And, when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.”

“When we strive to become better than we are, everything around us becomes better too.”

There are three quotes, which come from the book The Alchemist, which have helped me get over doubtful times in my life. I first heard about this book from Will Smith. One of my best friends sent over the audio because he had become inspired by what Will was saying about his rise to success. I believe he was being interviewed on 60 Minutes and he began to share his thoughts about how The Alchemist profoundly helped shape his life. He spoke about the book with such conviction that I immediately went and purchased  it, and was definitely not disappointed. It made sense to me and it resonated with something in my soul.

I’m not going to tell you the whole plot of the book, but the three quotes above will definitely give you examples of its principles. Our everyday struggles serve a purpose, and every choice we makeimpacts our walk in life. I am a very spiritual person, who makes decisions based on the conviction in my soul. If I don’t like your spirit, you are not my friend. If I don’t like what you are doing, I am compelled to tell you my thoughts, even if you don’t like it. I have been deemed head-strong and stubborn, because I choose not to go against what my heart desires. Compromising myself or beliefs will only make me unhappy. Now, there is nothing wrong with compromise but if it completely goes against your core values and beliefs, then that concession will only persecute your own thoughts later on down the line.  I may not know what I want all the time, but I sure do know what I don’t want.

Reading this book seemed to open up my “third eye,” as some will call it. It made think outside of myself and realize that we are all one. This world is connected: black, white, yellow, brown, woman, man, child, sky, earth, etc. If we do better, then people will be inspired to do better. I have people in my life who ridicule me for not drinking anymore or for eating right, which I find weird because that should be something one would encourage. However, they see my contentment with my decisions and sometimes, in a dark room, try to emulate the same behavior from time to time. My decisions are not for anyone else, but for the good of me. And I can only hope that people will want to do the same for themselves.

Another thing that struck a chord with me was the boy’s perseverance through all of his obstacles. He listened to his intuition, which kept him going when everything seemed to be caving in. However, because he wanted something, everything in the universe conspired to make it happen for him. I truly believe this. We may not understand the reasons why things happen at the moment, but if we sat down and reflected, one could probably put the puzzle together and get the answers. There are omens that God gives us to follow; some of us listen and some of us don’t. We know when to say no, but end up saying yes. Defying the omen may lead you down a path that may not be too kind. That decision can profoundly change your life forever, and those are the consequences that people can’t blame on life. We are quick to blame “the man,” the government, our parents, etc. However, maybe there were some omens that you chose to ignore, like going to school and getting an education, using a condom before laying down with a no-good woman or man, or getting money in ways that were lawful not unlawful. We all have omens we have ignored and ended up paying the price for, by way of heartbreak, disappointment, deferred dreams, and/or punishment. These choices shape the course of our life and our future generation’s lives. The Alchemist teaches one to slow down and not be too rash with your decisions; weigh the long-term consequences with the short-term gratification. Everything you want will not be easy. However, patience and persistence will eventually lead you to your desires.

When times get tough and things look bleak, I re-read these quotes. It gives me solace and re-confirms my purpose in life. The tough times will lead to the good times because I will it. There is no such thing as giving up. People may not understand or agree with my path, but it’s my path. The lessons I learn are my lessons, and I own them. I listen to my intuition and I have faith that my intuition will recognize the omens that God has set forth for me. Those omens will eventually lead me down my righteous path.

 

The Willpower to do….

Currently I am on Day 8 of the 10-day Master Cleanse. This is the second year in the row I’ve done this cleanse and it is definitely not for the weak hearted. Most people refer to it as the lemonade diet and use it for weight loss, but I’m doing it to cleanse my body of all the dietary toxins I may have accumulated over the last year. I think everyone should flush their bodies of toxins, build-up, and any other harmful things they digest. When I first heard about it, the thought of it seemed easy, but as the process began, I realized how much willpower I needed to complete a 10- (long) day restrictive diet. I usually try to do the cleanse during low stress periods because being under stress and trying to complete the cleanse isn’t the healthiest way to go. The cleanse takes a lot of discipline and anything can cause you to throw in the towel if overwhelmed by stress.

So 8 days ago, I went and got the items that were needed for the cleanse; organic lemons, grade B maple syrup, distilled water, cayenne pepper, unrefined sea salt, Smooth Move laxative tea, and  vegetable broth. Between running from Whole Foods, Traders Joes, and Giant, my grocery list was satisfied and I was ready to begin. I knew I was going to be drinking about 3 liters a day of this stuff, so I broke it up into making 2 batches of the concoction every 6-7 hours (you can not make the whole thing at once because the first batch spoils after a 12 hour period- the enzymes in the lemonade become less effective). Anyhow, when you first taste the lemonade, you may be surprised, that it doesn’t taste horrible (but it definitely doesn’t taste great). It is what one would call an “acquired taste”. It is a taste you need to get used to because it is all that you will be tasting for the next 10 days. Whoopee!!

My first day was a breeze, but I credit that to being mentally prepared from last year. I drank this cayenne-spiced lemonade whenever I got hungry and continued on with my day trying not to think of food. Now, some people have said they have gotten an excruciating headache the first day, but I believe that everything is mind over matter; get past the first day and things will get easier.

With that said, my second day was not so easy. Willfully, I fought through my hunger pains by drinking the mix, but it was frustrating and difficult. However my mindset was, this wasn’t the first time I had experienced hunger pains. It was just the first time I refrained from my first instinct of quenching my immediate desire by eating. This day was going to be my ultimate test of will. I was cranky, my stomach growled continuously, and I was uncomfortable. In my opinion, being uncomfortable for some people is not an option.  I believe some people self-medicate in their everyday life to ease their pain; whether it be with alcohol, sex, food, or drugs. Those type of people never make it through the cleanse.

Days three, four, and five, weren’t a walk in the park but it beat out day two. I was even able to workout because my energy level was so high. The funniest part of this cleanse is the heightening of your sense of smell. I was able to smell the frying of the chicken from Hip Hop Chicken as soon as I hit the corner of Reisterstown road, and it was only nine o’clock in the morning. The doors and lights were off but I knew someone was back there frying up a juicy chicken leg.

By days six and seven, I was tired of the taste of the lemonade and craved for something different. I’m a girl that likes variety so the monotony was driving me crazy. The one thing that kept me on track was the visual changes to my body. My stomach miraculously had no fat (no overlap when I sat down).

So now I am on Day 8, with two more days to go. The one thing I truly detest about the Master Cleanse is the sea salt flush. At the end of each day, you are to drink the laxative tea before you go to sleep. In about 6 hours, your body will wake you up (if you know what I mean!). You must first drink warm water with a teaspoon of the unrefined sea salt, which will run through you like a Russian racehorse at a Kentucky Derby. That first day was the most horrible stomach pain one can imagine. Your body can not throughly process salt that is not iodized so it cleans out all of the toxins you have stored. As the days go by, it definitely gets easier, but that first day is a doozy.

All in all, I think the cleanse does wonders. It is something I don’t look forward to but I do because of the end results. Sometimes that is how life is; there are things you don’t like to do but the effort always pays off. I’ve learned that my willpower and endurance are stronger as a result. My will to win is bound with hard work and determination. When the going gets tough, I don’t throw in the towel, and I can hold out if the pay off is worth it. I don’t succumb to peer pressure and  have no problem being different. I don’t cheat and when I put my mind to something I complete it. These are all the emotions and obstacles you overcome with the cleanse. Your mind and body have to be in sync to make it work. While doing the cleanse, I have cooked for people, had dinner meetings, been at functions catered with delicious food and still been steadfast about my mission. Even when it came to traveling, I packed up my items and made it work on the road. No excuses has been my motto. If you are in great health and want to challenge yourself, then this is something for you to try. At the end, you will feel healthier, energetic, and proud that you were able to complete something this difficult. Your body will look great and your willpower will be strengthened.

I go to http://www.themastercleanserecipe.org for the correct measurements and overview of the process. It is more like  a 14 day process, because after the tenth day, soft solids are allowed, vegetable broth by Day 11, and so forth. Because your body has been purified, nutrients and vitamins absorb into your bloodstream better. This is my second year and I have not been disappointed with any of my results.

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